| | One of the closest friends of my childhood and preteen years took his life on Sunday, so, yeah. I'm going to deal with it the best way I know how: I'm going to hate myself, everything else, and let the music fuel my anger. That said, at the strong, strong, strong, strongstrongstrong advice and wish of my counselor, I removed my stories and poetry from Xanga, except for the ones I wrote to be posted on xanga. *balloons, parties, cake, ice cream, joy and ponies abound* “You must realize that one day you will die. Until then you are worthless.” - Chuck Palahniuk quotes If you hadn't figured it out yet, I've had a pretty bad week, so far. On the face of the AOL homepage, today, there is controversy, scandals, scantily clad women, anger, hatred, misfortune and consumerism. I don't even know why I use the internet anymore, honestly. There's so much wrong with it, and very, very little that's right. Also, the right stuff has it's own secretive wrong side. Why bother having something correct if it's only going to be incorrect in it's own special, devious method? Meh. It'll burn some day. It'll be like fireworks, and the birth of a new nation. Some 4th of July, we're going to have an America free of capitalism, free of socialism, free of drugs, free of razor blades, free of eating disorders, free of rape, free of murder, and it'll be the new Declaration of Independance. We'll be a nation with a clean slate and free of sin. Some day, we'll be independant from what America is now. I know what day that will be. The one on which Hell freezes over. Today's Dictionary of Happiness entry: Dreams. Dictionary dot com states: | 1. | a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep. |
| 2. | the sleeping state in which this occurs. |
| 3. | an object seen in a dream. |
| 4. | an involuntary vision occurring to a person when awake. |
| 5. | a vision voluntarily indulged in while awake; daydream; reverie. |
| 6. | an aspiration; goal; aim: A trip to Europe is his dream. |
| 8. | something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence. |
How wrong. ^_^ The Dictionary of Happiness entry: Dreams: 1. A nightmare, otherwise known as screams in the night. 2. The thing that makes children believe for sure they are going to be a doctor, a rock star, a ballerina, or an astronaut. 3. The universal term for a dark comedy. 4. Aerosmith album covers. 5. Something that little boys have and try to cover up with a roll of papertowels and tears. 6. The kind of thing someone has during childhood, like being president or a supermodel. It continues to the day they day, even when they are conveniance store janitors and prostitutes. 7. The number one cause of fear in the United States. 8. The single most flammable object known to man. "This is the year that hope fails you." - Slipnot. Sure freakin' is. Chill, you spazerts. \,,/~Joe~\,,/ |
